I have always struggled with my weight.
I would try so hard to diet, I’d pop fat burners, I would try every single elimination diet and fad that popped up in my desperation to drop a few pounds.
Then one day, I stopped caring.
And the fat started melting off.
Fitness is an enormous part of my life, and working out always came naturally to me. However, food. What more do I need to say? Food.
It seemed like no matter which diet I followed or which supplements I took, I simply could not lose the weight. My workouts are constantly challenging and different, so I knew that nutrition was my issue. And I simply could not crack the code. I would stress out about it for hours, I would pay hundreds of dollars for meal plans, and I would not see results past the first week, no matter how hard I tried. Although that “trying” did eventually dissolve into a “screw it” moment where I’d binge, then feel super guilty, then hop on to another diet and try that…. only to see no results, yet again.
Then, I stopped caring.
I got up one day and I asked myself, “why am I trying so hard? This is what my body wants to be. I need to just accept that.” So I deleted all of my food tracking apps, I got rid of the meal plans, I ditched the diets, and I just decided to eat.
If I wanted coffee and a croissant for breakfast, I’d have it. I stopped measuring and weighing how many grams of chicken I was eating, and I just ate the chicken. I still incorporated healthy foods into my diet, but I allowed myself to just eat what I want, when I wanted it. It was kind of amazing – just a few weeks after I adopted this stress-free style of eating, I had multiple people come up to me and ask if I had lost weight. I decided to weigh myself, and lo and behold, I had lost 6 pounds. I was shocked- how can you lose weight if you’re not dieting? Is this real life? But somehow it was happening, and I think I know why.
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I had created such a mental stronghold when it came to food. I was obsessed with dieting, and I allowed it to overwhelm my life. I felt manic and anxious if I was going out to eat, and I had MyFitnessPal open on my phone 24/7, looking up nutrition facts and making sure I didn’t exceed my daily calories. I was so stressed out about eating that I didn’t even realize how much it was draining me. It consumed my thoughts and sometimes I wouldn’t even be able to sleep because I was planning what I would eat the next day.
All of the stress is just so unnecessary. As soon as I released myself from the grip that dieting had on me, I realized that my stress about eating was outdoing any benefit that dieting would have done for me. All it took was for me to understand that, and suddenly I was free, and I was seeing results.
Now, I do eat healthy and watch my portions, but I still allow myself to eat what I want. I add cream to my coffee and cheese to my dinner (ugh, I love cheese) and I don’t feel guilty about it. I enjoy a cookie after my lunch of green beans and chicken, and I realize that balance is what not only keeps me sane, but keeps my body in a good state.
This is me – and I’m done with dieting. I’d rather enjoy life than worry about food, and if I lose weight in the process, I’m down with that too.